Thursday, June 13, 2024

Dialogues on Disability: Shelley Tremain Interviews Kristina Lebedeva

“[i]n the absence of an elevator, my mom, a very attractive, petite, and fiercely proud woman, had to carry me up and down five flights of long, steep stairs. She took me to concerts and we went to the Black Sea almost every summer. This kind of vacation was one thing that she did get through her work. As I got older, she bought me books whenever she could, as well as makeup and trendy clothes. Within my small family circle, I wasn’t a less-than. She taught me to hold my head high, even as local kids were hurling insults at me whenever I was outside.

We didn’t have a wheelchair, so we had to use a stroller, which only added to the cruel merriment of those kids. This predicament is something Frantz Fanon wrote about. The black man, he argued, does not experience trauma in childhood. In fact, he isn’t aware of things being harsh and off-kilter as long as he remains within his community. He is first lacerated when he ventures into the world of the white man. The trauma of the black man happens out in the open; it has nothing to do with Freudian repression. Likewise, my trauma took place in broad daylight.

I was a slow learner, but I did learn. The world would deny me the basic company of fellow human beings. More importantly, I understood that the world wanted to beat me down and wanted me to stay down. So, I had to fight back and learn, and learn fast.

But the thing is, my mom was an exception and thus some people, in earnest, called her a saint. The parents of other disabled children rarely brought them outside, let alone travel with them in a country of endless stairs and insurmountable curb cuts, where disabled people were prisoners of architecture. As I learned later, my mom’s colleagues would say to her: “Why do you bother getting her nice clothes and taking her places? Leave her at home. She wouldn’t know any better.” This sentiment was the prevailing thinking.

So, it’s a simple, but hard, truth that it took the unimaginable efforts of one relentlessly fierce individual, fueled by the love that she had for her broken-doll daughter, for me to survive and eventually become the strong-willed, ambitious, proud woman that I am.”

Shelley Tremain, a key figure in the academic field of Disability Studies, is perhaps best known as the author of Foucault and the Government of Disability.

Click here to read the full interview with yours truly.



Sunday, June 9, 2024

Deseret by James Benning, 1995

In the loose sense of the term, Robert Smithson's sculpture Spiral Jetty is a rockform surrounded by, and closely interacting with water. It was built by pushing 6,650 tons of earth and basalt into the Great Salt Lake, resulting in a spiral 1,500 feet long and 15 feet wide. 

Smithson's Jetty is a creation devoid of any frame or boundary. Water, in an uncanny kind of foreshadowing, running red (the algae giving it its hue), weaves through it, a shimmering spiral unraveling into its open rock-structure. 


Incidentally,


Red is... the fiercest note, it is the highest light, it is the place where the walls of this world of ours wear the thinnest and something beyond burns through.

—G.K. Chesterton



—Mark Rothko


This masterpiece is exquisitely attuned to the lake's ever-changing conditions. As the water’s level and salinity shift, so does the jetty. Salt crystals assume a pivotal role in this dance. As a scholar of crystallography, Smithson foresaw the rocks would cloak themselves in a spectral layer of salt. He often remarked that salt crystals could grow in spirals, stating that the piece would perpetually spiral, like a fractal, endlessly intricate no matter how closely observed. Each inch of Spiral Jetty becomes a delicate, dizzying interface where the artwork and the world entwine.



Indeed, "the Spiral Jetty could be considered one layer within a spiraling crystal lattice, magnified trillions of times," like a mirror that is only a fragment within a spiral of mirrors. And then within another spiral. You get the idea.


Smithson beckoned viewers to traverse the spiral’s brackish curves, inviting a deliberate disorientation. "Following the spiral steps we return to our origins," he mused, "back to some pulpy protoplasm." To visit the jetty is to dissolve into its very essence. It is to evolve and to devolve.

Spiral Jetty, a testament to contingency, surrenders itself to ceaseless transformation, eschewing any illusion of permanence. Fifty years after Smithson's passing, the lake's ecosystem struggles to recover from a devastating drought, echoing the concept of entropy he had an enduring fascination with. Desiccated and laid bare, Spiral Jetty exposes this crisis while inviting us to confront our radical inseparability from the earth.

Why is this important, aside from the fact that it is unbelievably cool and haunting?

I first learned about Spiral Jetty while watching Deseret (the title refers to the name the territory of Utah chose for itself when campaigning for statehood in the 1860s), an audiotextual film by James Benning of 1996. 


Through the haunting lens of journalistic anecdotes, Benning weaves together 93 New York Times stories about what is now known as Utah—its violences and the history of Mormonism—juxtaposed with static shots of the stone’s Anasazi petroglyphs (the pre-European history of Utah is typically divided into three categories, the Archaic Indian Period, the Fremont/Anasazi Indian Period, and the Ute Indian Period), the rock art originating from each of those), ruins, and sediment. Each sentence introduces a new landscape in which to lose oneself. Fonts, colors, and latent fears gradually morph over time, as the careful curation of image and narrative intertwines and then diverges.

Stationary shots intertwine with the weaving of historical events, the violence conveyed linguistically contrasts sharply with the nearly-static visuals, often creating, indeed, a sense of disorientation, going back to the experience of the Jetty that we started with.

The history and its various forms of man-made violence, the radioactive particles, like an unlikely fatal snow, corrupting the crystals, are swirling around the ancient rocks with their art, carved into the stone by those who came long before us, in itself a kind of archaic newspaper, the images the purpose of which is often fabled and mysterious. 

Speaking of the violence of Mormonism and its infamous doctrine of blood atonement, the omission the of extremely infamous Lafferty murders (see Under the Banner of Heaven: A Story of Violent Faith by Jon Krakauer) is a bit inexplicable, especially since we hear about Gary Gilmore and the specifics of his death by firing squad, as detailed in The Executioner’s Song by Norman Mailer. 

Let me return, however, to the question of the immutable, the many faces of violence, and suffering. According to Emmanuel Levinas, a French philosopher of Lithuanian Jewish ancestry and a key thinker of ethics in the 20th century, “all suffering relates back to evil.”

In The Order of Evils: Toward an Ontology of Morals, Adi Ophir, a contemporary Israeli (pro-Palestinian) theorist, asserts that "we need to study the production of evils as concretely as we study geology," calling for a detailed and systematic examination of human actions and their destructive impacts, analogous to how geologists study the Earth's physical structure and processes. This concept can be deeply explored through the lens of Benning's film Deseret, which juxtaposes the enduring nature of geological formations in the Utah desert with the transient yet profound violence inflicted by human activities, such as nuclear testing.


In this film, the permanence and timelessness of the desert's landscape—its rocks, sand, and vast open spaces—serve as a backdrop that highlights the stark contrast between the natural world's stability and the disruptive force of human intervention, as presented by The New York Times news reports. The geological features of the desert, shaped over millions of years, embody a sense of continuity and resilience. They stand as silent witnesses to the passage of time and the episodes of human-induced violence, without, however, being impervious to it. Even the stone-newspaper is gradually being erased.


Benning's film meticulously documents various human atrocities, including the aforementioned historical episodes of nuclear testing, that have scarred the landscape irrevocably. These events represent what Ophir describes as the "production [and distribution] of evils." With their immediate and long-lasting effects on the environment and human health, the destructive power of atomic tests exemplifies how human actions can introduce profound and often irreversible harm to the world.


It is then possible to theorize the irremediable brought by man-made violence as the new, terrible permanence, in a way that the Qliphoth is the perverse upside-down of the Kabbalistic Tree of Life.


By presenting the desolate beauty of the desert alongside archival news reports and visual records of nuclear tests, Deseret provides a compelling narrative that underscores the duality of permanence and impermanence, as well as, I would argue, the ultimate inversion and redefinition of the two, the earth itself now acquiring an abyssal flimsiness to it. This juxtaposition reflects Ophir’s call for a concrete study of evils: just as geologists meticulously analyze rock formations to understand natural history, we must scrutinize the origins, mechanisms, and consequences of human actions that produce and/or fail to alleviate ongoing suffering and destruction.


This is a film that is created out of the rift between what we see and what we hear, plunging our senses into cognitive and affective disarray. Perhaps this is the rift we must dwell on, if we want to confront both Ophir’s imperative and the forever-tainted crystals of the Jetty itself. 


And the red, "the most joyous and dreadful thing in the physical universe," flows forth. It shall flow no more when the mountains dance in the wind like leaves, when the human shadow is etched into stone.


Thursday, June 6, 2024

Fave Horror Reads

the books I love and am in love with



I’m not going to mention the classics like King and Poe. Thomas Ligotti is another all-time fave.


In no particular order:


The Terror by Dan Simmons


The Exorcist by William Peter Blatty


The Hunger by Alma Katsu


Anathema by Nick Roberts


Boys in the Valley by Philip Fracassi


Near the Bone by Christina Henry


Ararat by Christopher Golden


Notes on an Execution by Danya Kukafka


Sundial by Catriona Ward


Cold Moon Over Babylon by Michael McDowell


The Reddening by Adam Nevill 


Swan Song by Robert McCammon


The Road by Cormac McCarthy


Penance by Eliza Clark


Tell Me I'm Worthless by Alison Rumfitt


Drawing Blood by Poppy Z. Brite


Exquisite Corpse by by Poppy Z. Brite


Let's Go Play at the Adams' by Mendal Johnson



Honorable mentions:


Snowblind by Christopher Golden


The Fervor by Alma Katsu


The Ruins by Scott Smith


The Winter People by Jennifer McMahon


Kill Creek by Scott Thomas


Seed by Ania Ahlburn


The Nightmare Man by J. H. Markert


All Hallows by Christopher Golden


Handling the Undead by John Lindqvist


Lost Souls by Poppy Z. Brite


Whisper Down the Lane by Clay Chapman


Das Parfum by Patrick Süskind


Full Brutal by Kristopher Triana


Books of 2024:


Penance by Eliza Clark


Drawing Blood by Poppy Z. Brite

The Troop by Nick Cutter

Mean Spirited by Nick Roberts

Gothic by Philip Fricassi

Saving Noah by Lucinda Berry (not technically horror, but still)

Tender is the Flesh by Augustina Bazterrica

The Church Beneath the Roots by Felix Blackwell

Let's Go Play at the Adams' by Mendal Johnson

Head Full of Ghosts by Paul Tremblay

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